Sunday, June 26, 2011

College: Best Days of My Life

I'm excited to see my college dorm again, and of curzzz, to see the little prayle Fr. Michel :) I'm missing the falls-hopping, mountain trekking, hiking, caving, camping and timoga like we do in college. I'm looking forward to relive those memories in joining the gathering. Will always be missing the company of the original sipat in the dorm during our time, (you know who you are) kay naa namo sa lagyong dapit ug nasud karon.. Much as I wanted to relive those memories but it will never be repeated. It will always remain as memories. But all the more, I wanted to experience a bit of that feeling again. Iligan City, a city of waterfalls, beaches and pools, here I come..

Monday, June 13, 2011

diary in handwriting vs. blogging

For me, nothing can beat writing diary through your hands than encoding it in the computer through blogs. there's a certain relief that you can feel in handwriting than encoding.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

1st day of class

Today is the first day of class in our small private institution. People are very busy and our president is freaking out. The chairs and classrooms and even some teachers not on place, students don't know what to do and where to go. But along with it, I just kept my cool, I spearheaded the orientation of the High School Dept.

My schedule for College Orientation is supposedly on last week of June but it was  changed into this week. I thought my proposed schedule will be approved but it was not. I will be cramming my head out.. Although I am not in favor on how some things will go through, it's still ok. I'm keeping my cool because I have no choice. : )

Friday, June 10, 2011

About My Page/Blogsite

If you find this page, you are one very lucky person. I don't really share this blog to everybody. I just left this like -this.. Just existing.. with me writing and expressing my feelings.

This is too personal for me. This contains emotions that I cannot express totally to my outside world to avoid complications. This is a venue to spill out overflowing emotions in me. Some of here maybe naive, sad, happy, angry, gloomy,excited, in-love, desperate, almost all emotions I can feel is poured here. This is a replacement of my diary.

You know why I choose to be not expressing all of my emotions to the ones I know around me? It's because sometimes if they know all of what you are feeling, everything is tight, to the feeling of you can't breathe, like the feeling of being choked. It's like a solution that is so concentrated or saturated. Another way of saying in tagalog : nakaka-sakal.

When you are going to spill it to the ones whom you don't know, it gives a venue for you to breathe, to get away from the concentrated solution, to dilute the social and emotional climate you are experiencing. Maybe that's why there is really a need for counselors and psychologists, because people like them are there to listen to you and be poured by your overflowing emotions, -with your secrets safe and in good hands because they are professionals and- you don't know them at all or at least they are outside of your tight social surrounding that could sometimes give you stress and difficulties. All you have with a counselor / psychologist is a professional relationship wherein you pay for their services for being there to listen to you and help you solve and be relieved of your little problem. Added to that, they are expert when it comes to that situation because they spent time studying about it. But here in the Philippines, it's a taboo to be referred to a counselor, all the more if it's a psychologist. People would think someone is already crazy. :)

The ironic thing is, my profession is a counselor. Yet I cling to my diaries for relief of the burdens I have inside and the things that bothers my mind. Now, I upgraded from my diaries to this blog. Diaries isn't handy. And if I wouldn't be too careful, it maybe read by my niece and cousins who  sometimes visit my room and cuddle with me. Nah, that was way too personal for them to read. Anyway if you could read this, I would feel it's okey because you don't even know me at all personally.

To write my emotions has been my best way of relieving the emotional turmoil that I sometimes have inside. Even though I'm a counselor, I am no perfect and I'm still the same as everybody else that has needs. I'm a normal person indeed, and writing to my diary which is now my blog site, is one of the things I enjoy.

Every person has always something to say about you, with different interpretations depending on their personality. It is beyond our control. I don't really share a lot about me especially the things I share here to the people around me except to those I have close encounters and I am comfortable sharing. I don't like a lot of complications in my life, which maybe the reason why I'm still single until now. But maybe it's okey, I have lived this kind of life since, and still haven't changed.

Welcome to my Diary Page.

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

this day

This day is not for me.. I really don't have the motivation to work and everything seems so urgent. Oh God help me..