Monday, August 22, 2011

This Day is Marked

          This day marked the sharing of this very private blogsite to my public facebook account. But in a discreet manner. Those people who will browse my fb profile info, read and click a lot shall find this private page of mine, along with my other blogsite, twitter and youtube account. I did that not to really share this page but for ease accessibility since I use facebook a lot more than any of these sites. To go to my other sites, I just have to click on the link I posted on my fb info page.

I write in any of these private sites those stuffs I can't share in my public fb account, or else it will look like a fiesta of comments there from all the people i know in all walks of my life. There are people who can't relate and only get half of the story and would sometimes even interpret fb status in a very different way in anyway they like, limitless, it could be negative or positive. It's better to have one or more sites so I can't be so saturated in one account. And also, I don't want to hurt people directly in my Fb account by expressing everything in there. It's just nice to keep boundaries and keep the distance. If they are really interested, curious, have a lot of time reading and know computer a lot, and most of all, as mentioned earlier -interested, then that's the time they will read and visit my other sites. But I guess only a few or it could be that none of them would bother so I still can keep my privacy here. : )

   (I will quote Kris and Bimby's expression)  love love ko!.... : )

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

A Gift

I was very down last week that I didn't go to work for 4 straight days. I really felt like quitting my job and was even about to do it.. Aaallmmmoosssttt... I talked to our HR and told her about my situation but I wasn't yet sure. I just would like to express. She knew that I was not satisfied with my salary, I expressed that to her the other year, but salary is not the issue at all this time. I felt emptiness inside so I was thinking of looking for another environment, like going to Dubai (my brother is there), or applying for a new job of different field. I just want a way out immediately. But thank God, our HR is a very good person, a very generous and kind-hearted woman. She understands the feeling of the employees and not mock us down. She listens and suggest things in the right way.

So, I just let those days go through, being absent and not worry a lot of my job once and for all to give me complete rest and a break from everything I'm busy with. I was surprised, when I get to the job again by Monday, everything seemed so new to me. It felt like a new life again and my enthusiasm to my work comes back. Of course I still have the little worry of not being around for 4 straight days. But everything was just smooth for me and I just do my job right away. Yeah I was really a bit sick last week that's why I felt down and powerless. Complete rest and getting rid of worry is really a nice therapy to bounce back in life.

Now I like to do my job and be fast in my transactions again. This is the second day of the week since I go back to work from a 4-day-absent-turn-to-instant-leave. My inspiration to do my job has indeed came back. And just this afternoon, I received a surprise gift from God. Our HR handed me the document which states my salary adjustment. My salary increase is P3,300 a month! Wow! Lord God really? Thank you so much!

That was really a revelation to me from God. Lately, I've been so empty and I know the reason why. I haven't really visited the church for a month now, I realized it's been a while. And just last Sunday, I have received a very nice message from the gospel and homily from the priests- one in TV (Fr. Sobrejuanite in TV Mass Studio 23), and one in the church I attended (Nazareno Church). It was about having faith in God to rescue us in our lowest moments. It did really fit for me. I was thinking "yeah, where did those people came from when they arrive in the right place at a right time that we needed them most." I like the example of Fr. Sobrejuanite when one time he and 3 other sisters were stranded in a rural/remote area. His car ran out of gasoline (the gasoline indicator in the dashboard was not functioning that time). Not long after he looked up in the sky to ask God for help and think of what to do next, there were two guys who came out in the woods with chainsaw and a gallon of gasoline with them. He asked for help and indeed the men offered their gasoline. And that was really a very nice example of God sending help, they arrive very timely in the right place with the gasoline. A very good news for me and for all of us. God really help us in times of our need. There are so many instances I experience in my life -God sending help through the people around me in times of need. Everything indeed has a purpose. When you are hurt or down , happy, excited or mocked down, everything has a purpose and God is always there at our side.

This experience make me grateful to the things I received in life, and to be grateful to God. I also learned to change the way of my thinking. That is - not to expect anything. Just plain and simple. Truly, happiness comes from the most unexpected things. Thank you Lord.